Goodbye For Now
P.O.D. - Testify

I can still see the light at the end of the tunnel
Shine through the dark times even when I lose my mind.
But it feels like no one in the world is listenin,
and I can't ever seem to make the right decisions.
I walk around in the same haze, I'm still caught in my same ways.
I'm losing time in these strange days,
but somehow I always know the right things to say.
I don't know what time it is,
or who's the one to blame for this.
Do I believe what I can't see?
and how do you know which way the wind blows?
Cause I can feel it all around,
I'm lost between the sound.
And just when I think I know, there she goes.
Goodbye for now, Goodbye for now (so long)
Goodbye for now,
I'm not the type to say I told you so.
Goodbye for now (so long)
I think the hardest part of holding on is lettin it go.
When will we sing a new song? A new song.
I'm still smiling as the day goes by,
and how come nobody ever knows the reasons why?
Bury it deep, so far that you can't see.
If your like me, who wears a broken heart on your sleeve,
Pains and struggles that you know so well,
Either time don't, it can't, or it just won't tell.
I'm not the type to say I told you so,
I think the hardest part of holding on is lettin it go.
I don't know what time it is,
or who's the one to blame for this.
Do I believe what I can't see?
and how do you know which way the wind blows?
Cause I can feel it all around,

I'm lost between the sound.
And just when I think I know, there she goes.

Goodbye for now, Goodbye for now (so long)

Goodbye for now,

I'm not the type to say I told you so.

Goodbye for now (so long)

I think the hardest part of holding on is lettin it go.

When will we sing a new song? A new song.

When will we sing a new song? A new song.

And you can sing until there's no song left (song left)

And I can scream until the world goes deaf (goes deaf)

For every other word left unsaid,

you should've took the time to read the signs

and see what it meant (what it meant)

In some ways everybody feels alone,

so if the burden is mine then I can carry my own (carry my own)

If joy really comes in the morning time,

then I'm gonna sit back and wait until the next sunrise.

Goodbye for now, Goodbye for now (so long)

Goodbye for now,

I'm not the type to say I told you so.

Goodbye for now (so long)

I think the hardest part of holding on is lettin it go.

When will we sing a new song? A new song.

When will we sing a new song? A new song.

I've been laughing to myself more than often nowadays. Am I mad? Goin' insane? That may just be some questions you might ask. But well, it's not really as bad as it sounds.
I've realised that I've been laughing. During conversations with people around me, whenever someone cracks or tries to crack a joke, I've been the one who either laughs before the joke is cracked or actually laughing at another joke that ain't exactly as obvious as it sounds or looks.
Don't get what I mean? Hahahaha... Well, I meant I've been laughing at a different joke. Laughing not at the joke intended to be cracked by the joker, but laughing at the joker or the people laughing at the jokes. Simply because I've came to realise how simple thinking the majority of the people are of now.
The society or the organisation is just like a food chain. The world we are living in is like a food web. Basically, just to set you thinking, a food chain has 4 basic characters.
1) Plant
2) Herbivore
3) Omnivore
4) Carnivore
The food chain shows how energy is being transferred from one being to another being. The Sun is the Earth's main source of energy (100%). The Plant receives the energy from the Sun to make food (10% of the Sun energy absorbed). The Herbivore/Omnivore eats the Plant to gain energy (10% of the food produced by the Plant = 1% of the main source). The Carnivore or Omnivore eats the Herbivore (10% of the energy gained from the Herbivore = 0.1% of the Sun's energy).
Plant is the majority as they are the main food producers. They control the population of Herbivores. Thus, affecting the number of Omnivores and Carnivores. Should 1 of which perishes, all the rest will perish subsequently. If you think deeper about the population in terms of ratio between the relationship of all these characters, you'll realise the drop in numbers as you go higher up in the food chain or energy pyramid.
Compare the ratio. Let this energy pyramid show you the ratio in terms of the number of successful people in life to those who are unsuccessful. Note that success comes in different forms and does not have to be judged in terms of money.
In this life, I've always try to identify who belongs to which character and which am I. I know who I am, but not everyone knows who am I. That's a trump card I'll hold as long as I don't reveal my true identity. Same goes for the rest out there. So to me, I've come to realise the number of plants there are in this society. Have you figure out which are you? Do you hold the trump card or have your card just been peeped?

What's this life for? I have been thinking and wondering what's this life for? Why the difference in life among each and every one individual? Why the difference in mentality? Why the difference in understanding? Why are there so many people who can't put themselves in another person's shoes more often? Why are Man so selfish? What is happening to this world that we are living in? Why is Singapore so complacent? Why are they so arrogant? Why are they so narrow minded? Why are they so short sighted? Have they no plans in the future? Have they no vision? What's up with idols, fame and stardom? What are the youths turning into? Why are they either so naive or over confident? Why have they no sense of reality but fantasy? Have they lost their sense of respect and values in life? Is the human life returning to the basics of attraction and breeding and nothing else? Have people forgotten about the roots and vision that once set the mark to civilization? Why do people take things for granted? Is being a cool hunk or hot chick all that matters? Is love blinding the youths of this generation from the real world? Have they all forgotten about the other issues where higher priority should be given? Have they think that everything will go their way only to end up with disappoint when did not? Have they learnt to take up responsibility and stop blaming others? Why are they always all talk and no action? Even if there is action, why are they needless actions which leads to nothing for the good of others but themselves? Why are they either blind or blurred from the reality? Is society to blame? Is selfishness the main reason to the problems that exist in society? Are families to be blamed? Why are the educated behaving as unethical as the uneducated? Does education make a difference? What good a difference does it make? Is money always the issue and judgement of success? Do people care about learning the true meaning of living? Do they just see life in each passing day? Is the media to blame the spread of all these poor upbringing?
Have people actually forgotten that the people around them are actually the ones that either make or break their lives? The world? The future? The thinking? The doing? The reasons?

Sometimes, how I wish to be a simple person who only think of limited things to save myself the trouble of not offending the feelings of other people? To do just what I want and bear the consequences, then blame the others, think lowly, act poorly, yet live a life which at the very least I thought I am never in the wrong. Why do I have to think such complicated things to make things happy for everyone but myself? Why do I neglect myself? Just who am I? What is this life? What have I been saying? Been typing? Why do I have questions? And yet answers to them but not yet the complete answers I so truly wish to have? Why is it that somehow, everything links to another?

There are so many paths in this life. Yet, I feel that the one I take is so hard to associate with? What is my true personality? Where is my true self? When can I find the true me? All I can do is think and put myself in too many shoes. So many till I actually lost my own shoes. My mind is lost. Lost in the galaxy of thoughts. Lost in the confusion of mazes. Stucked in the world of life. Why can't I be just as ignorant as society is? Why can't I have a simple mind to have a peace of mind?

Age doesn't always mean experience nor wisdom. Knowledge is power. With power comes responsibilities. With responsibilities comes burdens. With burdens means stress. With stress means loss of control. With loss of control results in losing myself. Losing myself means the lost of my true identity. Lost of my identity equals to the lost of my personality. Who am I? What sort of character am I? But perhaps the less I know, the more blissful I am.

Just what is this life for?

First of all... Regardless of race, language, or religion, here's a HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR to all!!!

Before the celebrations begin, I had a tough time goin' out shopping for new clothes for this festival. There was hardly any clothes that caught my eye. Made a number of fruitless shopping trips until the very day before the eve of CNY. Thanks to my great buds', I finally got a casual long sleeve shirt from P.O.A.

Despite all the hype and preparations for this festival, somehow deep down inside, I don't feel the excitement this year. I guess it's because of all the work we all are having now. National service, work, further studies, etc. All these somehow drifted us apart from the joyous season. Missed the fun and trips made to go to friends' house. All these past efforts seemed history now that everyone's schedule are different and hard to accomodate.

Receiving red packets aren't what I'm looking forward to now. It's the quality time spent with friends and family that is so much more important. Therefore, I'm really looking forward to the MIT0218 gathering this 4th Feb! Hope all the 'nonsense' will be back to fill the emptiness of this festival inside me. Haha...

But what really delighted me this festive season is surprisingly not local. It's from the world of football! Guess what! My favourite football idol is back where he belongs!

ROBBIE FOWLER IS BACK TO LIVERPOOL FOOTBALL CLUB!!!

WOOOOOHOOOOOOOOO~! The best red 'packet' (ang pao) I've ever received my entire life from the Reds of Merseyside, Liverpool! The best gift ever!

Robbie 'GOD' Fowler has returned to Liverpool Football Club on the eve of the Lunar New Year! You must say this is the best and greatest red 'packet' from the Reds ever!

After 5 years of disappearance from wearing the red, he has now returned to where he truly belongs. Despite the drop in form in recent years due to the lack of fitness and injuries, I believe his thirst and passion to play for the Reds will bring out the best in him.

Good things come in threes. Now we have Fowler back in the squad, we have 3 senior Scousers we can be proud of to lead, and carry on the tradition of the Red Machine. Fowler's presence will help to lift some burden and pressure off a pair of tired Gerrard and Carragher to inspire the rest of the lads.

I say...,"LET THE CELEBRATIONS BEGIN! LET THE FLOODGATES OPEN!"

HAHAHA!!!

Oops... Sorry for those uninterested in football. But what da heck?! This is my best CNY ang pao! Best news of this festive season! The most shocking news in the football world now! Every single Liverpudlian is celebrating! And why not?!

Once again...

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!!!

Here's a...

Merry Christmas
&
a Happy New Year

to all!!!